I Took Control of My Life and Found Myself

It started out as something to help forget what was really going on with my life; I had just gotten out of a relationship with a physically abusive boyfriend. I went to a friend that was a known heroin user and just plainly asked her to hook me up with some and she did. From the first time to the last time I used it was always intravenously. I thought that I would be able to afford this habit and live like a normal teenage girl, but this did not last for very long.

I stole any and everything that I thought I could possibly get some money; I did not care whose it was, I had to get my fix. My parents eventually caught on, my grades had dropped from a 3.8 GPA to a 1.5 and they were continually getting calls saying that I had skipped school. I barely graduated high school and at the commencement ceremony I was so high that the person next to me had to wake me up when my name was called. When my parents found a bag of syringes, they did the only thing that they could, kick me out. I checked myself into a hospital; I stayed there for a couple of days, did the 12 step thing and cleaned up. When I got out I immediately started up using again and ended up in the same vicious cycle that I was stuck in before. I tried a couple of more times going to different rehabs, but each time I would use almost immediately after I walked out of the door. The last rehab I was in I met a man and became involved with him. We lived together in various motels in the city, doing whatever necessary to get the money to pay for our constantly growing heroin habits. I came home from work one day and found him dead on the floor, he had overdosed.

My mother, the angel, found a place on the internet in Oklahoma called Narconon Arrowhead. She told me about this place and asked me if I would go, I told her that I would do anything to get me out of this situation that I was in because of the drugs. So, I came all of the way out to Oklahoma and started the NARCONON® program. As I progressed I began noticing things about myself that I had never seen before; I was actually finding my true self. I was out of this junkie haze that I had thought for so many years was reality, I was finally able to see everything for what it actually is. I began taking responsibility for my actions in the past and the present; this helped me feel like I was actually a part of the human race. This program has helped me to realize that I do have the ability to make choices in my life and that I am not powerless or a victim and I'm in control of my life. I have purified my body and my mind; I am now the person that I should have been all along. Now whenever someone asks my mother how her daughter is doing, she starts crying and says, "I got my Jenny back."

I now have almost 2 years clean and I know that I would not have been able to accomplish this without what I have learned and realized in the Narconon program. J.R. - Narconon Arrowhead Graduate Narconon.

The Road Out